a session with chat

grabe ang saya-saya ng buhay…kahit sobrang dami ng mga ginagawa at mga mumunting problemang dumarating..nagagawa ko pa ring tumawa sa bawat oras at araw na ginawa ng Poong Maykapal…Maraming pagbabagong dapat harapin at bigyan ng pansin..mga pagbabagong nagbubukas sa aking isipan at sa aking katauhan…salamat na lamang at kinakaya ko ito kahit malayo sa aking pamilya…marahil ito ay dahil sa aking mga kaibigang palaging nakaagapay sa aking mga galaw…maraming salamat sa inyo!!!…grabe..nararamdaman kong nagbago na nga ako…hindi na ako katulad ng dati na takot magbigay ng pagmamahal sa mga kaibigan ng buong-buo…hindi na rin ako katulad ng dati ng hindi nakasanayang magpahayag ng nararamdaman…para sa aking mga kapamilya at mga kaibigan…tatandaan nyo po palaging mahal na mahal ko kayo…minsan ko lang itong masabi pero..maniwala sana kayong totoo yun sa kalooban ko…Salamat sa pagbibigay kasiyahan at kulay sa aking buhay at pamamalagi sa mundong ito!!!!…God bless us all!!!

find out what your name means!!!mine is good…hehehe!!!

C- You’re wild & crazy.

H- You have a very good personality and looks.

A- Damn good kisser.

R- Sexy !

I- You get hyper easily.

T- You’re loyal to those you love.

Y- One of the best bfs/gfs anyone could ask for.

A- Damn good kisser.
B- Good all around person.
C- You’re wild & crazy.
D- You have one of the best personalities ever.
E- You have a nice ass.
F- People totally adore you.
G- You never let people tell you what to do.
H- You have a very good personality and looks.
I- You get hyper easily.
J- Everyone loves you.
K- You like to try new things
L- You live to have fun.
M- Success comes easily to you.
N- You are absolutely beautiful.
O- You’re an awesome person.
P- You are popular with all types of people.
Q- You are a hypocrite.
R- Sexy !
S- Easy to fall in love with.
T- You’re loyal to those you love.
U- You really like to chill.
V- You are not judgemental.
W- You are very broad minded.
X- You never let people tell you what to do.
Y- One of the best bfs/gfs anyone could ask for.
Z- You’re a little too hard to find.

hehehehe!!!you’re just an addiction…and like some other things that I am addicted to, I can also refrain from being addicted to you…goodbye..But on the other hand I am also thankful..and I have no regrets..Friends!!!I am on the verge of peace of mind again…Thank you very much!!!!;)

well…wanna know why?..here’s my story..all of us pass through life and having a crush is just an enormous experience..I guess all of us went through it..some got out of it as a "whole" person and some are not..just like me I guess..a big part of my life was distorted..having a great crush on someone is a hardship I have to go through..it’s part of life, isn’t it??..well yeah..partly but the great mistake I did was to rely on that idea of having a crush on someone..my dilemma?..he doesn’t care a bit..that’s my perception..I don’t know about him..every time he tell a joke I am hurt..bad as it seems..I still hold to that feeling..why can’t I move??..damn my subconscious mind..even I try not to think of him so often he still haunts me..can’t I escape his memory?..everything is attributed to him..letting go is a hard thing to do..especially when a big part of me is at stake..okay my fault!!!..I am inconsistent most of the time..even to myself..I guess until now I am still in the denial stage..and I know why..I am afraid of getting hurt..in contrast to what I say to other people, that getting hurt is a part of life that we have to deal..am I selfish??..tell me because I am confused right at this moment..there are also times when I want to go home..for there are so many memories of him..my family, my friends and the people connected to him..I want to break free from that kind of feeling..being a womyn in this society that we live in is hard..because as a person that should conform with what the society dictates..and because of these sentiments..my heart is CRUSHED into pieces..I wish my effort to bring it back together is enough..enough to forget and go on with my own life..it’s hard but with the help of God and the persons around me I guess I’ll make it..I still have more time to wait for the right man assigned to me..

Just hanging here with youCuz I don't find too many guysThat treat me like you doThose other guys all wanna take me for a rideBut when I walk their talk is suicideSome people never get beyond their stupid prideBut you can see the real me insideAnd I'm satisfied, oh no, ohh

Even though the gods are crazyEven though the stars are blindIf you show me real love babyI'll show you mine

I can make you nice and naughtyBe the devil and angel tooGot a heart and soul and bodyLet's see what this love can doBaby i'm perfect for you

My love, ohh oh

I could be your confidanteJust one of your girlfriendsBut I know that love's what you wantIf tomorrow the world endsWhy shouldn't we be with the one we really love?Now tell me who have you been dreaming ofAt night at home? oh no, ohh

Even though the gods are crazyEven though the stars are blindIf you show me real love babyI'll show you mine

I can make you nice and naughtyBe the devil and angel tooGot a heart and soul and bodyLet's see what this love can doBaby i'm perfect for you

Excuse me for feelingThis moment is criticalMight be me feelingIt could get physical, oh no, no no

Even though the gods are crazyEven though the stars are blindIf you show me real love babyI'll show you mine

I can make you nice and naughtyBe the devil and angel tooGot a heart and soul and bodyLet's see what this love can doLet's see what this love can doBaby I'm perfect for you

Baby I'm perfect for you

Even though the gods are crazy

Even though the stars are blind

Even though the gods are crazy

Ewan ko kung bakit gustong-gusto ko ang kanta na ito...seems pathetic but the music and the lyrics is good!!!;)

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lies..lies..lies..bakit kailangan pang magsabi ng kasinungalinangan??..para lang hindi masaktan ang taong pinangakuan?..para matapos na ang usapan?..madaming dahilan kung bakit nagsisinungaling tayo at nagbibitaw ng pangakong medyo malabong mangyari..sana hindi nasanay ang mga tao sa ganitong gawain..sana walang taong umaasa at kumakapit sa pangakong malabong mangyari..kasi masakit mabigo at umasa sa wala..kapag pinangakuan ka kasi masaya ka pero kapag hindi natupad para kang hinulog galing sa langit…masakit, sobrang sakit…kaya sana maging totoo na lang tayo sa ating mga sinasabi..kapag bibitaw ng pangako siguraduhing kaya natin itong panindigan…sana bumalik na ang "palabra de honor" na pinangangalagaan natin noon…mas mabuti na ang magsabi ng totoo kaysa sa pangakong malaki ang posibilidad na mabibigo…dahil ang pangako ay may malaking bahagi ng ating pagkatao at ng taong pinangakuan…isang mapagpalayang araw sa inyo!!!!!;)

just as the song goes.."why can’t it be?…why can’t it be the two of us?..why can’t we be lovers?..only friends?"..there are so many reasons…and the main reason is that..I am a friend of your girlfriend…I don’t know if the two of you really broke apart or what..plus the fact that we are close friends together with our other friends..its not wrong I know and I can handle that kind of situation..but let’s just wait for the right time…maybe, just maybe..we are going somewhere together…there is something you don’t know…I love someone and if I let you court me and have a relationship it will just complicate things…I am sorry..I am not yet ready for this kind of relationship..I can’t engage in a relationship..especially with someone who has a past relationship with a friend…let’s prefer it this way..a friend to one another…just always remember I am here for you no matter what..I will not reveal your personality..you know who you are…

Mahirap nga bang magmahaL????..para sa akin hindi…ang pagmamahal ay nanggagaling sa kaibuturan ng iyong pagkatao..hindi kailanman dapat turuan kung sino ang dapat mahalin..ito ay nararamdaman lamang at nababawasan sa takdang panahon, ngunit sa maraming kadahilanan…bakit maraming tao ang nasasaktan kung inyong tatanungin…sa aking palagay, hindi ang dahilang nagmamahal tayo ang rason kung bakit tayo nasasaktan..ito ay ang mga ispekulasyon at mga inaasam natin sa taong mahal natin…tayo and may hawak ng buhay natin..walang ibang pwedeng pagbuntunan ng galit kung hindi tayo lamang…walang maaaring manakit ng ating pagkatao kung hindi natin iyon pinayagan sa simula pa lamang…walang mali sa pagmahal..kailangan lamang natin itong timbangin at ilagay sa tamang lugar..ang kakayahang magmahal ay biyaya ng Diyos at dahil sa pagmamahal tayo ay nabubuhay at nagiging masaya..kapag nagmahal ka at nasaktan ka..matuwa ka dahil naramdaman mong magmahal…ang sakit ay bahagi ng buhay..kung hindi ka nasaktan hindi mo malalamang may kakayahan kang magmahal..kung ayaw mong masaktan baguhin mo ang pananaw mo huwag mong isumpa ang pagmamahal…dahil bilang tao hindi ka mabubuhay ng walang pagmamahal sa katawan..ikaw lang ang kawawa sa huli..’wag tayong matakot..harapin ang katotohan at maging masaya!!!!!(-_-)

What is being?..there is no exact translation of the word being..it is a word that is hard to dig upon..the big question now is..what is my ontology as a person???..how do I interact with people???..Am I living in this society on my own or Am I someone that thinks about my kapwa?..I am a part of a society that interacts with other people..what I do can affect the lives of other people especially those who are connected  with me..everything I do has an impact and that made me think…What if I do what I want to do???…can it contribute to my being and to the being of other people?..the answer depends on the things I want to do..if it is good or bad for the being of others…

yeah boi!!!What a boring week…haaayyy!!!..masayang walang pasok ng halos buong linggo pero nakakabagot naman kasi hindi naman kami nakalabas at nakapagliwaliw!!!…sige!!ikaw ang gumala sa mabagyong Baguio at tiyak matatakot ka rin…hehehehe!!!…ayon nga…share ko senyo ang nangyari…wala masyado…kasi nga konting oras lang kami sa labas ng apartment namin…yun ay para kumain lang…sobrang nakakapanginig ang ihip ng hangin at halos hindi na kami makalakad ng maayos sa lakas ng hangin..tapos malamang sa malamang na delikado magbyahe ng mga panahong iyon..paano ba naman kasi,,,zero visibility ang Baguio ng mga panahong iyon…pero masaya kasi foggy fog fog..hehehehe!!!…pero syempre ang nakakalungkot na part ay may mga buahy na nakitil dahil sa mga landslides…sana po ay mag-alay tayo ng mataimtim na panalangin para sa kanilang mga kaluluwa…maraming salamat po…hanggang dito na lang po…pagpalaiin tayo ng Poong Maykapal at Nawa’y hindi na maulit ang malagim na trahedya na dulot ng mga katulad ni "Florita"…Peace men and womyn…(**,)